Thursday, January 24, 2008

life's been hard lately

I hate to complain, but I'm in one of those funks. You know the ones you get in when you don't get enough sleep for about 3 weeks, and no matter how hard or constantly you clean, it's still a mess! Well that's where I'm at today. I'm grumpy and tired. We've been fighting illness for over 3 weeks. We had about 5 days last week, when everyone seemed well. Then, Kade (while we were camping in 25 degree weather) was up all night Friday, Sat, Sun, Mon and Tues nights. I took him to the doctor on Monday, but he only had a "little fluid in his left ear" His nose started running copiously on Tues and Elizabeth's started as well. Kade finally slept all night without a peep last night, but Elizabeth DID NOT.... so it goes with twins. And now I have their cold....arggghhh

We are so blessed, but right at this very moment, I do not feel blessed. I know in my head I should, but I just don't. Beau must be exhausted (he gets up more at night than I ...he can actually rock in his sleep, believe it or not). Two exhausted and irritable parents don't make very nice partners. We're both a bit snippy (he'll never admit that). But I realize I'm snippy, but can't seem to stop.

I just want healthy kids, happy kids, a clean house, and enough money left over at the end of the month for a message and dinner out. It doesn't seem like too much to ask, but it must be. I need to learn to be thankful for 2 healthy kids, 2 happy babies (who play with each other for hours and nap well 2x daily), a home to live in, and enough money to pay the bills.

Right now i just want a nap! and the laundry done! Choir practice tonight (that I'm having to talk myself into, which I shouldn't), work tomorrow, girls night out tomorrow night at Mike Anderson's (that I'm having to talk myself into and I shouldn't), work Saturday, and by birthday dinner Sat. night (and yes I'm having to talk myself into that as well...hopefully will have 8 hours of sleep sometime soon and will glad to go go go). I'm so overwhelmed with life with twins today. But God how I love these babies and wouldn't trade them for 10 hours of sleep, a full time sleep and massages every day!

Ok, I added this picture, because no matter how bad I feel today, it is nothing compared to how miserable I was. It made me laugh and decide my life isn't that hard. I thought whoever reads this might laugh with me!!!


hvarle22 said...

Does it help to know there are people in a different part of the country who feel your pain and wish they could help? I'm new at reading your blog and a mother of two very energentic boys (ages 7 and 13) who keep me on my toes. We had been trying to have another baby with the hopes of a girl but have been unsuccessful. I've decided that I was meant to have these two boys and I see the light at the tunnel finally. And I know when I get there and they are all grown up, I'm going to wish I could turn back time. So, just know there is someone out there that loves what you are doing, thinks you have a wonderfully beautiful family and hopes everyone gets healthy soon!!!! Take care and hugs and kisses to those beautiful babies! Heidi Lynn Varle, Maine

Jodi Lyn said...

thanks Heidi Lynn, we're all doing better now